"I left because you never asked me to stay..."

I like this saying, why stuck with someone who doesn't appreciate you at all? I remember in the Gospels it mentioned that Jesus folded the cloth covered His head when He resurrected in his tomb. That was a sign  to show Jewish that He was not happy how He was treated, and what He meant is "I was not treated right." Most time we just bring the abuses to ourselves, if someone treat us wrong, why we have to put up with him or her? Leave and never come back, and be better, stronger and have a wonderful life...

I am back...for love and for the changing...

Sounds funny, I don't understand why we need feelings. We constantly hurt people and get hurt. and sometimes we hurt ourselves. Slowly life taught me the reason why we cannot forgive others is because we have never forgiven ourselves. From the Chinese culture, we are always holding the grouch grudges that hurts, especially ourselves--I cannot still remember every single bit of unfairness people landed on me  years ago. Fundamentally it is me I cannot let go. The expectation of myself is too high, too wonderful and too hard to accomplish with one life.

I decided to change the man in the mirror. (Can you hear yourself humming...) Very often, every morning I call myself handsome and gorgeous, I am trying to stop say "I hate myself" or "I am so stupid", instead I replacing them with "I love myself". Why I shouldn't love myself? I think I am very cute. The other day girls were trying to pick me up...

See, I am cute, right? (Whatever you say...)